Max and the Stars.....

Max was pretty restless last night and he didn't want to go to bed. I think it was bc he was super tired during the day yesterday and mostly slept. He is sleeping a lot.

He is not wanting to eat much. We have been able to get him to eat burger but he's getting bored with that so I boiled a chicken which he usually loves, but he turned his nose up to it. Colin made him a steak so he had some of that this morning with some bone broth. He's barely eating though. :( His diarrhea continues, although not quite as much (maybe 5 times yesterday). We have cut him down on his meds and are only giving him what he needs at this point.

It's incredibly hard to tell if the way he is feeling is chemo related or cancer related. If we knew it was chemo for sure and that he would get better in a few days or week, that would be great. We just want our boy back. If we knew 100% for sure this was the cancer and it was not going to get any better, we would help him along to meet God. The last thing we want to do is to put him down if these are just chemo symptoms. We are praying like crazy for clarity. Please join us in that prayer so we can be confident.

At 1am he decided he wanted to go outside so outside we went! To say the stars were insane last night is an understatement. They were breathtaking! He ran tonight outside. It was more of a happy fast jog, and although he's on bed rest and shouldn't be running, I let the boy run. He laid down in the wet grass (it was raining) and just wanted to lay there, so we laid. The air was crisp, the stars were shining and there wasn't a sound around. Just utter peace and quiet. I decided to let him lay and I headed towards the door to sit on the deck. The next thing I know, there was a Maxie galloping towards me. It was like old times. No pain. No care in the world. Just me, my Max, and the stars.

xoxoxo,

Brenda